Trainer.

So today I had my first training session with Tony at 24 Hour Fitness. It wasn't really what i expected. First let me just clarify I hate working out, absolutely hate it. It has been so hard to get me motivated to get my ass in gear and move. Once I do, I feel great but its just getting over that initial hump, and moving.
So today at my training session, I met Tony, he seems nice enough, he's studying to be a chiropractor, which is good, since I have been seeing a chiropractor for my coccyx and sacral pain, and his focus is to get a good workout with out pain, which totally works for me. He had me do some core strenghtening activities for about 35 minutes and then we talked about diet for the rest of the session. I feel like I have a pretty good handle on the diet thing. I know what I should be eating, and I know what I eat, and somethings they are the same thing, and well sometimes they are different and I don't eat as healthy as I should, which isn't really a big surprise, I mean how else did I get to be over 270 lbs. He wants me to change some things in my diet which I'm not sure I am comfortable with, specifically not eating yogurt. I struggle with eating breakfast in the morning, if I eat to early it makes me sick, but I know I need to eat something, especially on the days I work, so I usually just have yogurt, cereal or fruit once I get to work before I start my day. I'm not sure If I can eat at home before work. Its just a struggle. I am trying to workout before work, and getting up early enough to have my stomach settle to eat breakfast and then workout well jeez, I would have to get up at like 3am which would totally not work for me. So where do I go from here? I will listen to what he has to say and maybe use some but not all of the information. The other thing is that he wants me to start eating more calories a day. I'm striving for 1700-1800 a day, and finding it hard to eat enough to obtain that goal. Emotionally I have been having a lot of things going on in my life and my appetite has suffered, so to try and eat more when I'm already struggling with the eating is difficult, and besides I want to lose weight so I need to eat less... I feel like my plan has been working so far. I mean I have lost nearly 30 lbs since starting in July which is awesome and I must be doing something right. My next appointment is scheduled for Tuesday, and I'm debating on whether to change/reschedule for a later date in the week. I guess I just don't have the motivation I need today. Luckily I start counseling sessions today, and I really want to work with her on why I have all this extra weight, and why I started putting it on in elementary school. I think getting to the root of the problem will help me in the future, to lose this extra weight that i have been carrying around for 20 years.

Loving the 240's for now anyways.

So the whole diet and exercise thing is going great from me for a couple different reasons.

1) I've been stressed, nausated and not eating for the last week (which definently is helping me lose weight, but in all the wrong ways).

2) When I am eating, I am being smart about what I choose to eat. I weigh everything as I prepare it and then log everything I eat into my online bodybugg program which calcuates the calorie content. I am consuming about 1700-1800 calories a day on average.

3) I keep motivating myself to get up and get my body moving. I am being active at least 5 days a week. Either using the elliptical at home or have been running or walking with Logan. Which allows me to burn anywhere from 3000-3400 calories a day.

My next step is to actually schedule my training sessions at 24 Hour Fitness that i recieved for my brithday. I'm not sure why I am so resistant to meet with a trainer. I think maybe fear that I will be a failure. Its so much easier to just be fat and give up, but thats not what I want anymore. So hopefully I can get up the courage to schedule these sessions. I had them scheduled at one time, and then later canceled for a silly reason, but a reason non the less, which is how I try and justify my decision.

At times I think the progress is so slow, I just want the weight to fall off, but then when I think about it, I realize I am doing awesome, and that it will just take time. I am noticing a change in the way my clothes fit. Most of my jeans are getting to big and very saggy in my butt, which is frustrating not having proper fitting clothes, but exhilarating to know that they dont fit cause they are to big.

Todays weight: October 17, 2009 is 248lbs. Yay for the 240's and I hope to never see you again.

In the begining.

July 7, 2009

One week into the summer weight loss, on a bike ride to the library.

June 30, 2009

Me, on my 8 year Anniversary with Scott at the

Portland Rose Garden, the day before begining

my summer weight loss.

In the begining.

So this summer I took on a huge challenge, to lose some weight. From July 1st to the end of August I lost and amazing 20 lbs. Slowly over the month of September I began to gain some weight back, but only about 8 pounds. So here I start again with the weight loss Journey.

So as a new month starts, I once again start my weight loss journey, with the hope of being successful this time around. In a effort to support this goal I have purchased a NordicTrack elliptical from Costco, and even though I have to convince myself daily to get on the elliptical, it has well been worth the investment. I get all sweaty and feel great after my workouts. I am also measuring, weighing and tracking my calories through www.bodybugg.com and have been using the program online to calculate the number of calories I burn throughout the day as well as the total number of calories I consume. This allows me to have measurable results each day and also holds me accountable for what I choose to each and how active I am throughout the day.

My starting weight on July 1st, 2009 was 273lbs (wholy cow, literally) then I gained a couple back and started over again in October.
My starting weight on October 1st, 2009 was 258lbs (yikes)
My short term goal is to lose 25 lbs by December 24th, 2009
My long term goal is to lose 90 lbs by next spring hopefully May 2010, so that I can have a baby and get fat all over again.

Wish me luck, for I will surely need it, along with any will power you are willing to donate to me.

Thank you all for your support on this difficult journey.