Loving the 240's for now anyways.

So the whole diet and exercise thing is going great from me for a couple different reasons.

1) I've been stressed, nausated and not eating for the last week (which definently is helping me lose weight, but in all the wrong ways).

2) When I am eating, I am being smart about what I choose to eat. I weigh everything as I prepare it and then log everything I eat into my online bodybugg program which calcuates the calorie content. I am consuming about 1700-1800 calories a day on average.

3) I keep motivating myself to get up and get my body moving. I am being active at least 5 days a week. Either using the elliptical at home or have been running or walking with Logan. Which allows me to burn anywhere from 3000-3400 calories a day.

My next step is to actually schedule my training sessions at 24 Hour Fitness that i recieved for my brithday. I'm not sure why I am so resistant to meet with a trainer. I think maybe fear that I will be a failure. Its so much easier to just be fat and give up, but thats not what I want anymore. So hopefully I can get up the courage to schedule these sessions. I had them scheduled at one time, and then later canceled for a silly reason, but a reason non the less, which is how I try and justify my decision.

At times I think the progress is so slow, I just want the weight to fall off, but then when I think about it, I realize I am doing awesome, and that it will just take time. I am noticing a change in the way my clothes fit. Most of my jeans are getting to big and very saggy in my butt, which is frustrating not having proper fitting clothes, but exhilarating to know that they dont fit cause they are to big.

Todays weight: October 17, 2009 is 248lbs. Yay for the 240's and I hope to never see you again.